19th day

That's nothing to change anymore.

The new month - JUNE

is not my month

The first four day of June

I had been through a really hard time

I didn't tell anyone of my feeling

my frustrated
my mind

Since that day
the day that I think I won't forget in my life

I keep all the feeling and things in my heart

because I found out

no matter who you tell

how close you have with the person

they have no responsible to keep it 

and stay between both of you

I use to trust people easily
and forgive people easily

but now I guess I'm wrong
Only trust yourself and your family
and always forgive you yourself
because no one is perefect
we do make mistakes

That moment my brain was blank
I feel dizzy
I feel like that's hell
I don't know what I really did
but no matter how much I defend
I'm still the wrong person

In my past 19 years
no matter how much i don't like or hate a person personality or behaviour
if they apologise to me and not doing the same things to me
I'm still glad that we still friend
I still can get along with you
and appreciate you that in part of my life
and create your memories between us

For me, memories is priceless.
because
Things, people, everything come and go but memories stay.

But this time
he let me know that what's the real hate feeling
and what's betrayed

Since end of May until now
Is low period of my life
I fall from heaven to hell
no one holding me

Because of that
I'm now totally awake
No longer stay in my own wonderland anymore
No longer think that life is as smooth as baby skin

Anyway
as I always say
Things happen happened.
No one can changed.
The only things you can do is smile and stand up from where you fall
Be stronger
Be thankful for the people that make you who you are now

♥